Friday, February 18, 2005

One of those days. . .

I have been feeling so run down lately, and I wonder if I am doing this to myself. I know that I have not been eating as "good" as I could (and I guess that could be because I have not been using weed that much), and I know that my little "under the table" jobs have been taking their toll, but I sincerely thought I had more energy than this. . .

Today, I really hate being HIV positive.

Friday, February 11, 2005

I wish I knew. . .

if anyone was reading this. . . I find myself struggling to find time to write, and still make a semblence of a life. I have to clean the homes of others "under the table" in order to supplememt the little bit of income I get from Social Security disability, and lately, my neuropathy and myelopathy (basically nerve damage in the extremities and spinal cord, repectively, from either the medications, HIV, or a combination of the two, depending on who you read) has been getting so bad that I am in tears after two days of working. . .